Ego Check

Last night, all I could think about was R/X'ing the workout (21-15-9 C2B and SDLHP with 100 double-unders as a buyout).  My pull-ups suck, but I really thought I R/X'd.  I got my chest to bar, but I guess you can't kip?? I don't know.  All I know is that pull-ups from a dead hang are no problem, but those dang CF pull-ups are freaky and weird and counterintuitive and, anyway, all I could think about is those dang double-unders though.  I'm going to do 100 of them.  I'm going to do 100 of them.  

When you are speeding through the workout and everything present a problem and you are trying to get stronger, form just goes to hell.  I have to step back.  I WANT to be stronger.  That's what I WANT.  I want to be able to R/X (and I need to be stronger to do that, but it doesn't happen over night).  There's an anxious part of me that can't stop what happens in my life from happening and I'm bringing that frantic pace to the crossfit now and it's going to end up killing my motivation.  My ego needs to be in check...

I question whether I can get stronger.  Can I really bench more than my max 130?  Can I squat 225 again?  I just need to slow down, and stop that frantic pace of my "real" life from creeping in.  Whatever the case, it won't happen overnight.   Time to revisit my goals and rewrite my action steps.

Step 1:  Check My Ego